The First Word

I had to do this blog. I began a new journey back in August as a single mother. Well, I was always a married single mom given the continued absence of my spouse, even if he was physically present. Yes I am still married but the STBE is no longer in the picture. I won't go into details as to what exactly took place but it was a long time coming. I am too jaded to go into my past. I guess that bit by bit the puzzle of my life will fit together.

What I will tell you now is this:

• I am raising two small children by myself.
• I am broke and underemployed....damn recession!
• My husband wants to come back to me in the future.
• I do not want him to come back, ever.
• I have been dating, just for the hell of it.
• I have a lover (my high school sweetheart) and another I see on occasion (a married man of political importance whom I have been seeing off an on for a decade).
• I am not looking for a committed relationship but I want to be loved.
• My life is complicated, and I am a mess.

Welcome!